Sometimes mommys need help

My labor wasn't a typical one, if there is such a thing, but thats a story for another day.  My daughter was born with a birth defect, (oh how I hate that word) clubfoot.  Because she was having some breathing problems and a possible infection I was only allowed to hold her for a few precious moments before she was taken to the nursery.  I am sure someone told me, at the time, that she had a clubfoot but I was exhausted after giving birth, as I assume most women are, and fell asleep shortly after.  It wasn't until 3 am, when I woke in a panic, that I told my husband I wanted to see the baby now!  A fainting spell and wheelchair ride later, I was in the nursery looking at my precious baby girl.  She was just perfect even with all the ivs, but gasp, what was wrong with her foot.  With tears in my eyes I looked at my husband and asked what was wrong with her.  "Remember, she was born with a clubfoot?"  No I didn't remember!!  Now dont get me wrong I was incredibily thankful for a healthy baby girl and clubfoot is by no means life threatening, but I was still very upset.  They explained to us that she would have to be put in a cast right away, followed by weekly castings and a surgery.  I was devastated.  And though my family and friends were very supportive, I couldnt help being sad, worried and even a little angry.  But somehow we got through those first two months of long weekly trips to the specialist, though it wasnt always easy.  Fast forward to today and many sleepless nights of googling "clubfoot," " or "how to get your baby to sleep" or "why is my hair falling out" only to find myself mortified at all the horror stories.  I just wanted another mother, who had a child with clubfoot to tell me it will be ok; that if sleeping her in swing helps her sleep, let her sleep; that it was ok that breastfeeding didnt work out for us; that I wasnt a bad mom when I couldnt get her to stop crying so I just cried with her; that it was ok to be angry with my husband over nothing as long as he knew I still loved him at the end of the day... all of this lead to me wanting to create a blog... a blog where mommy's can reach out to other mommys, share their stories, their worries, their heartaches and their happy moments.  I hope by sharing my experiences I can help another mommy, or at least make her smile and I hope others will share their stories too because well mommy may know best but sometimes mommy needs a little help!